Sunday, 24 November 2013

Sunday the Longest Day

Today is Sunday.
I really don't like Sundays.
I've been in a bit of a funk the last couple days and it being Sunday isn't helping.

Sundays used to be awesome. Sleeping in, eating late, doing nothing.
Sundays with kids suck.
Nothing is open on Sundays, not really that there is much, but the excitement of buying food or checking mail is at least there as an activity.
No playgroup, daycare or anything.
Kids always, ALWAYS messier, more argumentative and in your face.
They are currently alternating coming to the gate at the door whining and clawing to get in while I attempt to eat eggs on toast. 
It feels like everything is taking forever and today will never end.
I tried to look at Pinterest to find something to do with them, hopefully Christmas related, now just feel even more lazy and annoyed as I have no resources to do anything with and I live in the middle of nowhere and can't buy things unless I pre order weeks in advance. 
The cat just vomited. Awesome.
Hate Sundays.

My extra crappy mood stemming from crappy people I have encountered this week.
I know that in life you just meet/have to deal with toxic people.
These people often don't know they are offensive and awful, that's just who they are.
I also know that when someone is mean it usually isn't really about me.
Everyone has been hurt by something at some time, everyone has formed opinions from their life experience, when someone is mean, jealous or defensive it usually is an issue they are going through. 
Normally they try to one up you, make you look bad, make you feel bad, belittle you.
I usually can pity them and that will be enough to accept they are in their own jealous/hurt/guilt bubble and are taking it out on me and then let it go.
I think I just got to the point where after years of the same behaviour is exhausting.
When someone clearly has no respect for you and is just emotionally unstable all the time, it's like a mine field and you get sick of tiptoeing, taking the time and effort to find out where the explosives are and taking the safest route, even if it is longer and tires you out more in the process. 
Worse, if you accidentally detonate, you then spend a considerable amount of time, scrambling to put yourself back together, burying the hole and licking your wounds before tiptoeing away again to continue the tiresome journey minesweeping and avoiding.
No more.
I've just got so much going on, too many important things for my life to deal with without a nasty judgemental shadow lurking somewhere. 
I finally stood up for myself and just.... it feels good.
It is such a weight lifted. 
I am very happy and at peace with it.
You cannot even imagine.

 I think the funk is coming from that I didn't do it ages ago. 
I feel ashamed at myself for not trusting my instincts.
Definitely making me re evaluate myself and how much I let people take advantage of me and how much I put up with.
I don't and won't let any person or situation change my nature or core being as I quite like who I am.
I just have always walked away from a situation and felt better for it, whether or not the other person feels victorious I don't know, but I can now see this has left me open for further attack.
I know I am a good person on the inside.
I am in a good place with my life.
I feel very secure in my being.
This is definitely making it easier to see others clearer and make friends for being in a similar place I am.
So much less complicate!

Even writing this out in black and white has just solidified how at peace I feel now.
I know this is another life lesson and I think definitely some baggage I had to unload before we have our new baby.
I want to be the best role model I can for my kids and how I deal with people and how I let them deal with me, especially having a daughter soon, is going to be how they learn and grow into compassionate and strong adults.
I want them to know the best action to take, when to stand up for themselves or walk away from a bully, when to ask for help.

Everyone is going through something, fighting invisible battles in their life or in their person, everyone feels insecure sometimes.
Sometimes you can help them, sometimes you can only empathise with them and sometimes you can't do either and you can only walk away from them or risk taking their energy on board.

My house certainly feels lighter, I have white saged and cleansed the negativity, kids are happier as I am happier.
Just need it not to be Sunday anymore.
The sound of a thousand duplos being emptied can be heard.
There's bickering between brothers and egg on the couch.
There's still cat spew on the carpet.
I can smell poo.
On the plus, Mouse is due for a nap.

Thursday, 21 November 2013

Sand, Snooze and General Mischief

Husband is very lucky to work 8 days on and 6 days off. We have a whole 6 uninterrupted blissful days to spend together as a family. Most weeks we don't do much and the week slips by, days of occasional food shopping, computer gaming and loving on each other.
We have just come to the end of a wonderful lazy yet busy week together.
Coming towards the completion of the year and the threat of Christmas looming has meant there is plenty to do and activities for the boys increase.

Visiting Dad at work and having lunch
We started our week with a trip to Karratha for a ultrasound on my kidney, pain and bladder issues have given a red light on possible hydronephrosis again, the reason why Mouse was kicked out a little ahead of schedule.
Looks like a positive on that, the severity and effects will be reason for ongoing monitoring and probably another early eviction date for this little girl.
I am in two minds about this, the pain and weeing every 5 minutes suck but I really love the idea of a set day and being organised to meet our newbie.
I am hoping we both stay well enough until then.
Other than that at 25 weeks I am huge in comparison to pregnant with Mouse. Baby is moving a lot, parties all night long and as much as it is a love/hate relationship I love my bump, it is big enough to fold clothes on, however I am expanding far faster than I would like. It is around 13 weeks until we meet your little face and it cannot go fast enough.

Hello baby!
Since we made the trip to Karratha we stayed overnight in Dampier, on a spur of the moment decision we made our way to Hearson's Cove for the boys to frolic about and collect shells, I enjoyed whaling about in the shallow warm water in my new spotty bathers, resembling a soggy toadstool :)
It was just beautiful and made my soul calm.

After a great few hours shopping and visiting the indoor playcentre - Big thumbs up from all big and little people, we drove home the following day, our week went on to consist of a lot of time with our crazy 2 and plenty of eating, napping and happiness.
It was my favourite type of week.


  • You are 4 years old
  • You still go on about your birthday party like you're having another one tomorrow
  • Ipad obsessed
  • Still Lightning McQueen overload, Octonauts have joined in also Mike the Knight and SpiderMan
  • So excited for your new sister and constantly ask me if the new bubby is in my bellybutton still, sometimes you stick your eye against it to try see her
  • You love picking clothes out for her, especially if they have butterflies
  • We are nearly toilet trained - hooray!
  • You have hit the *why* stage - its awful!! lol I have become the mum that says things like 'Because I said so!' After the 10th 'But why?'
  • Your favourite foods are chicken & chips, bacon, watermelon, salad, icecream - bubble O'bills, but you eat the nose - apple juice, nutella & noodles (nurdles)
  • You still pronounce helicopter as artitocktar
  • You have been a lot more cuddly and affectionate as of late
  • Your favourite person is Daddy 
  • Your vocabulary is exploding and I am surprised daily as what comes out
  • You are very protective of your brother
  • When Milo wakes up you always wish him good morning and ask if he had a nice sleep
  • You are becoming very polite and thoughtful quite often, I am a proud mama :)

  • You are 18 months old
  • You love music and will randomly dance which cracks me up
  • You are just the happiest boy
  • 2 days ago you said your first real word, it was apple :)
  • You also can somewhat say daddy, hi, ta-ta, kitty, teddy and birdy, you give everything else a crack and babble more and more everyday
  • When we get the wipes out, you go into auto lie down mode, where ever you are
  • If I tell you we're getting milk or an icecream, you will go to the kitchen gate 
  • You still don't like being that far away and will be devastated if I lock you out of anywhere
  • When you have done a poo you will stick your tongue out for yucky
  • When I tell you and your brother dinner is ready, you toddle off and sit at your table and wait to be served
  • Also Ipad obsessed
  • You know very well when you are somewhere doing something you shouldn't be doing 
  • You love climbing
  • You love cuddles and kisses, you go and cuddle your brother in bed in the morning
  • Your favourite foods are apple, biscuits, corn, watermelon, ice cream, chips and tinned spaghetti, also chocolate, you love chocolate!
  • You have started climbing out of your cot - eek!
Opening a letter, mmmm tasty
 Life has been good as of late.
Husband and I have been taking more time to enjoy the kids and being together as a family.
I have learnt from having Mouse that I worry less about everything, life is chilled out. Messes can be left, washing will get done, I will catch up on the house.

Smallest boy & a bump
 The boys are growing too fast and now they are playing together more, it has meant husband and I have had slightly more time (ever so slight) to just have a minute together and appreciate each other, at least until this new one arrives and then it will all be chaos again.
I take more opportunities to sit with the kids just because I can, cuddles can't wait and slowing down is good for all of us although in saying that I have never been busier and I love it. Getting into bed at night I am exhausted!

In the next few weeks we have plenty of Christmas preparation with parties for the kids and presents to buy, have done zero shopping so far.
Husband will have off for Christmas for the first time since we have been a family! I am excited and hoping for low key and lazy.
Life is quite wonderful for the moment.
I am very happy.

love <3

Sunday, 10 November 2013

MIA & Exciting News

I know we have been missing for the last couple months but we have been a very busy little house because.....

And then this....

 Celebrated doing this...

Afterwards there was this...

And finally, there was this...

We have been totally flat out with planning for our NEW BABY GIRL, Mouse having surgery, Mushroom turning the big 4, Halloween... & Christmas is fast approaching.

The end of the year will be here before we know it and we have an equally as busy 2014 in our future. So much excitement =D

Looking forward to updating more again now things are settling for at least a couple months.